Daiso Therapy.

Hello, you guys. I'm sorry about the giant gap between posts, I know I apologize to much for this, but hopefully I will be able to get in some regular posting through the rest of this year.

Anyway, I've been a little down lately. I had a really stressful last week of term and ended up eating so much that I gained around 7lbs/3kg. It made me really upset and I kept eating, but after a lot of emotional work I'm back on track and determined to finish. I plan to be around 135lbs/61kg by the end of August.

To help me lose weight I decided to get some smaller bowls and things to eat out of. This is a tactic I've always used, but the bowls I had were still a little big and quite honestly, if I get something cute I'm much more likely to use it. So I bought a few things.

Little soup bowls! 

Aren't they cute? They're meant for miso soup (which I do enjoy from time to time) but I'm going to eat all of my meals out of them at home to regulate my portions better. The panda one says "I eat a lot" lol. I also got one more thing for my diet.

A smaller bento box!

It's meant for kids, but I was having some anxiety about eating lunch at work and stopped taking a lunch at all. I know I need to eat to keep up my metabolism, and I figured a smaller bento would ease my worries about eating/packing too much a bit. Oh, just so no one is confused, "work" is my unpaid externship (internship). I work in a little production kitchen mixing doughs, making croissants and buns, and filling macarons! I love it but it's very tiring.

New Years Resolutions.

I know I'm a bit late, but I decided to make a list of resolutions for this year. I originally planned not to make any, because no one ever keeps them (including me). But that's negative, and that kind of thinking isn't going to get me anywhere. So here is my list.

1. Lose weight. There's nothing wrong with my weight now, I look ok, but who wants to look "ok?". I don't work out and I barely watch what I eat so I know that I can lose weight if I try. I have a large frame size and I'm 5'5"/165cm, so I'm actually already at my "ideal weight" but I decided that my ultimate goal weight is 135lbs/61kg. I haven't decided on a time frame yet, but currently I weigh around 155lbs/70kg so I have around 20lbs/9kg to lose. I've already cut down my caloric intake to between 1000 and 1500 a day and started a one hour morning workout, so I hope to start seeing some results soon!

2. Be neater. I am an extremely messy, sloppy, person. My room is disgusting and I have a very hard time getting organized. So I'm going to clean my room once a week and tidy every morning before I got to school.

3. Spend more time on my appearance. I think I mentioned this in my previous post, I leave the house with something just thrown on way too often. When I step out of my front door I better look great or be wearing a chef's coat.

4. Learn how to cook more meals. Since I stopped eating meat over three years ago by diet has felt very limited. I eat the same things over and over again unless I go out, and that just seems silly since I consider myself to be very good at cooking. I want to expand my repertoire.

5. Be positive. I'm not as negative as I used to be, but I still get really down on myself sometimes. I think that needs to stop since it's not productive. Plus, if I do the best I can when I have something to do, there will be no reason for me to feel bad about it.

I've already started and I'm determined to work on these things as I think they will help me be a more well rounded person. I feel a little one dimensional right now, which is really not ok with me.

Weight Loss and Trying Not to Overdo It (Warning: May Get Preachy)

I really want to share my current struggle with my weight. I read about girls desperately trying to lose weight and even starving themselves all the time and in some ways I admire their dedication. I also think that there is a place of compromise for everyone, between eating heartily and losing weight slowly and starving yourself with ridiculous diets.

So last week when I went to PAX I pretty much ruined a month's worth of dieting and exercise by eating whatever I wanted without even paying attention to how much or how bad it was. The Washington State Convention Center is downtown and has a Taco Del Mar and a Cheesecake factory in the same building. I had never been to a Cheesecake factory, and when I looked at the menu I was super pleased but THE CALORIES.  My Boyfriend and I shared an appetizer that was over 2000 calories and I didn't even bother looking at the nutritional value for me entree. 

Weight Loss Rewards.

I'm not even going to pretend this isn't a filler post. I'm planning a big shopping trip for as soon as I reach my weight goal, so I've been searching the internet for good buys. I'm trying to transition into an older style, but still maintain the sweet elements that I love. I think that everything I've been interested in wearing lately has a much cleaner and less cluttered feel to the clothes I've picked out in the past. These are basically the things I've decided on so far (granted they fit, of course.)